Making the Hard Decision
Sometimes the best decision is the hard decision. There was a time in my life, not too long ago, when quitting something felt like a failure. My inner mean girl would be there to tell me all kinds of not nice things about who I was as a person because I didn’t stick something out until the bitter end.
In reality, quitting can sometimes be a sign of truly knowing who you are as a person and what it is you really want.
I faced this recently with a project that I took on. A project that I was wildly excited about.
I was excited about the message, about the collaboration, about the offering. I dove in head first and started figuring out all the pieces of this new endeavor. As is often the case, there was a lot more work involved in this simple idea than I had expected. And, with that comes other layers of communication, negotiation, and collaboration.
As things got rolling, I could feel my heart calling me in a different direction. I could feel my inner voice – my intuition – calling my energy away from this project.
The only problem: there wasn’t actually anything wrong with the offering that was being created. It is actually good. I was getting good feedback from a lot of different avenues and yet my intuition kept growing louder and louder that I need to focus my attention somewhere else.
This is challenging territory for me. That mean-girl voice inside was telling me I was quitting; that I’m a quitter; that I’m lazy; and on and on about letting go of something before it exhausted its full course.
However, there is also that strong inner wisdom within me that I’ve worked many years to uncover and allow to have space.
She often feels a deep knowing before I can rationally explain the what and why. She is telling me no. She is telling me, let go and trust. She is telling me I’m right where I need to be, learning a difficult lesson about myself and my values, and that is truly what was meant to happen by taking part in this experiment. And a very valid experiment at that.
Ultimately, we don’t know until we try. But in that, we also need permission to know that it is OK to change our minds.
That it is not a character defect or personal failure, it's simply that our heart and soul are telling us there is something else for us. Intuition is our power if we can let it be a guide. If we can trust deep down that we know what is best for us. And that sometimes the kindest and most respectful thing is to let go when our heart is ready and not have to wait for unyielding proof that we are making the right decision. Trusting in myself is my greatest power.
Which is why I am both sad and proud to announce that I’m stepping back from my role with the We Deserve Better podcast. It has been a brief but powerful journey. I know it has resonated with many and I know my speaking work is not finished, however my soul is calling me in other directions right now, and I must listen.
